Monday Words: Let it Explode

A few weeks ago I found myself walking across Shasta Dam. Normally this is a common thing to do on a pretty day when you’re wanting to play with water and get a few spring and summertime photos. However, this day was different. It was iconic. The last time I was at the dam it was a rainy day. This winter and spring, we’ve had more rainy days that have followed. Downpours and hailstorms have come. Usually talking about the weather isn’t a great way to begin a conversation (or a blog post for that matter),  but as I crossed the dam underneath the spring sunshine, I realized there was a noise. Where we had a drought for three years, the dam was released and water was rushing through. I heard the rush of water and saw the water levels at an all time high for the first time in three years.

As I drove down the hills and bluffs that day, I found myself wondering and my heart soaring. What does it look like as a creative for it to explode? For the fullness of self, of creative desires and force to be released? No longer held back by obstacles, writer’s block, or fear of vulnerability, what happens when we let it explode? The dreams inside our heart, running after the deepest part of ourselves, and showing up in the fullness of who we are? Looking at the rush of water that day. I marveled. It was stunning and beautiful. The contrast of what we had known, the impossibilities we had heard, and what was set before us. It was juxtaposition and paradox set before me. I loved it.

When I write posts like this, I know it’s easy to say things like “Let it explode. Follow your dreams. Make money with your passion.” But it’s far more difficult actually do it. As I write this post, there are some changes I’m making around this space. After blogging for two years, I’ve been able to hone in on what it is I love to create, but more than anything long to have focus on what I’m creating. There are times where I’ve felt like a explosion of stress, and letting things explode meant giving grace to my heart in seasons, the long hours in the studio, the late nights and the all too early of mornings. There are other days where letting it explode has meant intentionality, giving generously, and finding the back roads, the uncharted trails, and getting lost in cities. Other days, letting it explode has meant the bursts of creative energy, going analog and finding the beauty in long hours, cultivating inspiration, and rediscovering the beauty of my craft and what started the love of design to begin with. As a creative, what does it mean to boldly create, evolve, and dedicate space to my craft? What does it mean to choose vulnerability, daring into the unknown, and surprising even myself when I innovate and change.

Today, whatever it looks like. Let it explode.

 

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