Today brings an honest moment with it. Lately, things have been a bit of a struggle. With as much growth that has happened over the past year, in the past few days insecurity and fears have rushed in. The theme of them? I’m worried that more than anything my life will be insignificant. More daunting than failure, I’ve been plagued with this looming question of, “Does any of this really matter?”
Because of this inner dialogue, I stopped. I stopped creating, stopped doing, and all I wanted to do was chill on the couch all weekend. Somewhere along the way, my drive and focus just left. If you know me this is rare. Super rare, as in it never happens. I looked at type, pretty pictures, and moodboards. I felt nothing.
With this came thoughts and contemplation. I’ve been wondering if my voice and this space have much to offer the world and really if a year in, I have anything left to say. Does this actually resonate with anyone? It’s strange when one day you’re looking at your to-do list and conquering it at great speed, only the next day to not care at all, ambushed by this sense of lack and not even knowing where to begin. I hope this week, this strange cloud will begin to lift as I place my hand back to the plow. But what if instead of being plagued with feelings of insignificance, I believed that I was far more amazing than what I could even think. What if there’s huge significance in what you do, in the work you create? What if right in this moment you are creating dreams, roots, and ideas from the ground up? Sometimes we get in the way of us: of our goals, of achievement, and what we really want to do all the time.
Remember this Monday: You are far more amazing than you think.